I am not in the mood to blog nor do I have the luxury of time but I feel so compelled to write about this… I went to the mall earlier to buy something, but when I passed by the chocolate section I felt a very strong urge to eat chocolate… my mouth is dripping with saliva and my eyes were glued to the goodies (wehehehee) and though I tried with all my strength to fight the temptation… I found myself paying for a bar of Cadbury Fruits and Nuts…. And so when evening came I stared long and hard at my chocolate bar… with joyful heart I opened it with care making sure that not a particle of it would drop to the ground…I then took my first bite and was about to chew it when my eyes drop into the bar at my hands and voila… there and then white worms were squirming with glee … AHHHHHHH…. Yucky!!! I puked everything out including my intestines… hehehehe. Well good for me this haunting incident saved me from a forbidden chow and made me loathe chocolate bars hopefully for the rest of my life (hehehehehehehe). That’s all!!! Moral Lesson: Don’t eat worms. Hehehehehehhe.
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Again, it’s Sunday. I spent the whole day in front of the PC doing everything I can think of. I went online for more than 5 hours, been hoarding music from Limewire.. It’s fun!!! Hehehehehe. I developed a strong liking to Switchfoot band. I like their music, so if you happen to be reading this nonsense blog of mine I highly recommend that you give Switchfoot a try. I promise that it will be worth your time *wink* don’t forget to listen closely to the lyrics of their songs. My top favorites are: THIS IS YOUR LIFE, DARE YOU TO MOVE, MEANT TO LIVE, and ONLY HOPE. Thanks to Jay for introducing me to this kind of music. My second favorite is WIRES of Athlete. Hehehehhehehe. Though I know I can’t sing… yeah as in literally I cannot sing, I can never carry even a single tune, yet I downloaded all the lyrics of these favorite songs of mine and sing along at the top of my voice with my lungs on the verge of bursting. Hehehehehe. Here’s a portion of the song:
This is Your Life (Switchfoot)
Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
This is Your Life (Switchfoot)
Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you’ve broken
Don’t close your eyes,
don’t close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you’ve got now
Yeah, and today is all you’ll ever have
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over
I just recently had a grand time reading the Prince of Tides. It’s a fat book and it took me 3 nights to finish it. It was the only thing that entertained me in the ship during our trip to Manila last month. So if you happen to take hold of this book read it and you’ll somehow relate to the characters and the lives they live. Well I guess there’s already a film for this novel but I haven’t seen it. A story of a mediocre man with a poet twin sister battling against insanity, an older brother fighting for his cause, a beautiful mother who lives in lies and make-believe, a shrimper father, and eccentric grandparents. Hehhehe. And of course I also had read a very thin book by Erich Seagal entitled Love Story hah… it’s quite boring at first but the end of the book made me cry non-stop, which was of course the cause of my puffy eyes the following morning.
Sometimes I do wonder if I am losing my zeal for my profession, I know I am not. Am I becoming an ineffective educator? I am far from perfect, but I take my work sincerely. I always bear in mind my accountability towards my students and that a fraction of their future depends on me. You will only understand the complexity of being an educator when you become one. Our work follows us even at home; after office hours supposedly spent with loved ones are used up in checking papers and preparing grades. Nights are ended with the thoughts of the lectures and activities for the next day, haunting us even in our dreams. Hehehe. And so when other people perceived us as relaxed individuals then maybe we should try trading places.
Sunday, September 18, 2005
It’s Sunday and I am home relaxing and enjoying every minute of it. I have 101 things to do but I don’t have the heart to start working… never on a Sunday!!! I could never ever forget the story of the five balls from the book, SUZANNE’S DIARY FOR NICHOLAS written by James Patterson. The Story of five balls goes like this:
Imagine life is a game in which you are juggling five balls. The balls are called work, family, health, friends and integrity. And you are keeping all of them in the air. But one day you finally come to understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. The other four balls- family, health, friends, and integrity are made of glass. If you drop one of these, it will be irrevocably scuffed, nicked, perhaps even shattered. And once you truly understand the lesson of the five balls, you will have the beginnings of balance in your life.
The past weeks were action-packed. September 8, was the birthday of Mama Mary and on this day one of my prayers was answered… my heart is of course full of thanksgiving… Mama Mary had interceded again; she had given me a wonderful gift on her birthday. Thank You Mama Mary!!!
Sometimes I can’t understand why husbands hit their beloved wives. A person very close to my heart called up crying; her worthless, drunk, drugged husband had slapped and kicked her. She was crying non-stop but has no plans of leaving the bastard… hah, but on the second day when her adored husband threatened her again, she fled scurrying to the loving comfort of her parents’ home. But as expected she is now again back in the loving arms of the good-for-nothing husband…. Hah!!! It irks me… but I am praying that may the angels be always with her to protect her and that in Gods goodness and power may her husband be enlightened. (This is the second time that the bastard hit her)
We never really can tell what tomorrow brings; everyday that comes is a pure surprise. How life can be like walking in a high wire, where a tiny misstep would mean the end. But I would like to imagine that the high wire I am trudging has a safety net beneath, where I will be given another chance to walk again when I fall. Our world was a little bit shaken with Kuya Jomar’s news that Ate Gigi was undergoing surgery; her gall bladder was in the process of being removed because of gallstones. It was again a point in our lives when prayer was our only refuge. I admire my husband, for his very first reaction upon hearing the news was to take hold of the rosary and implored heavens for the success of Ate’s operation and indeed after almost 2 agonizing hours Ate was out of the operating room safe and sound with only trace of Band-Aids for her incisions. God is really good!!!
Imagine life is a game in which you are juggling five balls. The balls are called work, family, health, friends and integrity. And you are keeping all of them in the air. But one day you finally come to understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. The other four balls- family, health, friends, and integrity are made of glass. If you drop one of these, it will be irrevocably scuffed, nicked, perhaps even shattered. And once you truly understand the lesson of the five balls, you will have the beginnings of balance in your life.
The past weeks were action-packed. September 8, was the birthday of Mama Mary and on this day one of my prayers was answered… my heart is of course full of thanksgiving… Mama Mary had interceded again; she had given me a wonderful gift on her birthday. Thank You Mama Mary!!!
Sometimes I can’t understand why husbands hit their beloved wives. A person very close to my heart called up crying; her worthless, drunk, drugged husband had slapped and kicked her. She was crying non-stop but has no plans of leaving the bastard… hah, but on the second day when her adored husband threatened her again, she fled scurrying to the loving comfort of her parents’ home. But as expected she is now again back in the loving arms of the good-for-nothing husband…. Hah!!! It irks me… but I am praying that may the angels be always with her to protect her and that in Gods goodness and power may her husband be enlightened. (This is the second time that the bastard hit her)
We never really can tell what tomorrow brings; everyday that comes is a pure surprise. How life can be like walking in a high wire, where a tiny misstep would mean the end. But I would like to imagine that the high wire I am trudging has a safety net beneath, where I will be given another chance to walk again when I fall. Our world was a little bit shaken with Kuya Jomar’s news that Ate Gigi was undergoing surgery; her gall bladder was in the process of being removed because of gallstones. It was again a point in our lives when prayer was our only refuge. I admire my husband, for his very first reaction upon hearing the news was to take hold of the rosary and implored heavens for the success of Ate’s operation and indeed after almost 2 agonizing hours Ate was out of the operating room safe and sound with only trace of Band-Aids for her incisions. God is really good!!!
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Today I am stuck here at home. I have been to the doctor earlier to seek relief from the misery of several restless nights because of a very persistent dry cough. After a week of trying every remedy to at least alleviate the agony of coughing uncontrollably … I’ve at last given up and sought the help of a Pulmonologist.
Being ill and sleepless is a pure torture. I just can’t begin to describe the anguish I have to go through every night… it feels like I am coughing my lungs out every 30 seconds, and the bouts of coughing will only stop when my body’s too dead tired to cough (hehehehhe) and it would be at about 3:00 to 4:00 in the morning, I can see the hand of the clock ticking every second away. I will then find refuge in my slumber only to be awakened again by a coughing fit, waking every sleepy nerve in my poor body. It is so frustrating and maddening that I have come to appreciate the value of good health.
And so after seven miserable nights, I finally found myself in front of a very good and kind Doctor who asked me series of questions, to help me out with my affliction. I was a little bit nervous since I am all alone, I am not feeling well and I realized that this would be the first time that I’m seeing a doctor without my mother around. Well the last time I’ve been to a doctor was about a decade ago, because of a very bad migraine. After the question and answer portion and with some poking and prodding with a stethoscope across my body the kind Doctor advised me to obtain an x-ray of my chest, since she's hearing a murmur in my back and she found a lymph node in my neck, which of course made me more panicky, with all the ghastly thoughts running across my mind. (Is it tuberculosis? Lung cancer? L) After some agonizing minutes the x-ray result came out… and the doctor pronounced that I am only suffering from bronchitis and I’ve got an extremely normal lungs. (PRAISE GOD!)
So here I am, taking some rest in front of the PC blogging my hours away. With the help of a strong dose of antibiotics, antitussive and anti-allergy I am in my way to a cough-free existence. Hehehehhehehehe.
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Today I cried in front of my boss while begging for a loan to pay for my brother’s medicine. I just can’t stop the tears from falling after a very hard day of approaching almost everybody I know in trying to borrow for the much needed cash. And what’s more hurting is when the person you love most won’t even bother in helping you out.
I just don’t know why I feel so emotional. Maybe it was just brought about by the humiliation of being turned down countless times or the urgency of the pressing need. But the fact is I really cried non-stop in front of everybody at work and I find it quite appalling and shameful.
While I recollect the events of the day tears still sting my eyes. I know that, what I am crying about is a very petty thing, insignificant, nonsense. I grew up as a very irresponsible person. I never had helped my family in anyway financially. I spend all the money I earn for myself and self alone. I am care-free. When my mother airs her concern for money I would quote her with my favorite verse from the bible “Look at the birds in the sky they don’t have storage rooms or barns; God feeds them! You are worth so much more than birds…………. So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will have enough worries of its own.” which will of course start my mothers ranting and sermon.
Maybe, finally I am becoming responsible…. but seeing your younger brother sick and bloating from allergy would really make any sane person panicking. I dragged my sick brother to the hospital amidst my mothers protest that a dose of sugar will ease the bloating. But with the fear that the allergy would affect his internal organs, and with high hopes that the doctor in the hospital would be of help we of course found ourselves in the hospital. (Allergy was brought about by the antibiotics he had been taking for his swelling wound). He was then given a shot of anti-allergy and a prescription of a stronger antibiotic by a newbie doctor which of course was the cause of more bloating the following morning. So again my brother was brought to the hospital and another shot of anti-allergy was given but this time sans antibiotic for it was the culprit of the unwanted bloating. And Praise God my brother is better now and slowly recovering from the allergy. And so this happening was the cause of my need for cash earlier this day….
But of course the realization hit me that I am now a more responsible individual… hah at least this musing today had made me feel better and renewed. J
I just don’t know why I feel so emotional. Maybe it was just brought about by the humiliation of being turned down countless times or the urgency of the pressing need. But the fact is I really cried non-stop in front of everybody at work and I find it quite appalling and shameful.
While I recollect the events of the day tears still sting my eyes. I know that, what I am crying about is a very petty thing, insignificant, nonsense. I grew up as a very irresponsible person. I never had helped my family in anyway financially. I spend all the money I earn for myself and self alone. I am care-free. When my mother airs her concern for money I would quote her with my favorite verse from the bible “Look at the birds in the sky they don’t have storage rooms or barns; God feeds them! You are worth so much more than birds…………. So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will have enough worries of its own.” which will of course start my mothers ranting and sermon.
Maybe, finally I am becoming responsible…. but seeing your younger brother sick and bloating from allergy would really make any sane person panicking. I dragged my sick brother to the hospital amidst my mothers protest that a dose of sugar will ease the bloating. But with the fear that the allergy would affect his internal organs, and with high hopes that the doctor in the hospital would be of help we of course found ourselves in the hospital. (Allergy was brought about by the antibiotics he had been taking for his swelling wound). He was then given a shot of anti-allergy and a prescription of a stronger antibiotic by a newbie doctor which of course was the cause of more bloating the following morning. So again my brother was brought to the hospital and another shot of anti-allergy was given but this time sans antibiotic for it was the culprit of the unwanted bloating. And Praise God my brother is better now and slowly recovering from the allergy. And so this happening was the cause of my need for cash earlier this day….
But of course the realization hit me that I am now a more responsible individual… hah at least this musing today had made me feel better and renewed. J
Friday, August 12, 2005
Today is but one of those ordinary days. Get up late, went to school late and blabber non-stop in front of my students. Life can sometimes be wearisome and boring. (*yawn*). Much as I wanted to blog everyday I really can’t do it because I am always busy (BUSY AS IN!!!). That is why Joey still holds the record for our top 1 pc game these days the Ever addicting Dynomite, Whew I just can’t wait to beat him really soon when I am not that busy.
Let me think of things that make me busy. Midterm exams are coming so I am busy thinking of the questions I’ll gonna give my students. And again because midterm is scheduled next week it means that I’ll be busy checking the piles of seat works, quizzes, assignments and exams. After checking of course I have to compute the grades because students’ grades are due one week after the exam. And to top it all I’ll also be busy reviewing my contestants for the upcoming National Tagisan ng Talino. We will be traveling all the way to Manila to compete because we garnered the gold medal for the Think Quest Competition in the recently concluded Regional Competition. J(We won because of our 101% prayer and a pinch of hard work).
Now I am considering if I am indeed busy. Or am I just imagining? I am a great procrastinator. Deadline is my inspiration; it is my motivation. I always feel busy but actually I am not accomplishing anything. Thoughts often crowd my mind, that I just can’t organize a thing. Ahhh this musing aint leading me anywhere so I better stop and clear my head.
I get fatter and fatter everyday and I aint doing anything about it. I’ll go jogging with Joey tomorrow, promise. (hehehehhehe..)
Let me think of things that make me busy. Midterm exams are coming so I am busy thinking of the questions I’ll gonna give my students. And again because midterm is scheduled next week it means that I’ll be busy checking the piles of seat works, quizzes, assignments and exams. After checking of course I have to compute the grades because students’ grades are due one week after the exam. And to top it all I’ll also be busy reviewing my contestants for the upcoming National Tagisan ng Talino. We will be traveling all the way to Manila to compete because we garnered the gold medal for the Think Quest Competition in the recently concluded Regional Competition. J(We won because of our 101% prayer and a pinch of hard work).
Now I am considering if I am indeed busy. Or am I just imagining? I am a great procrastinator. Deadline is my inspiration; it is my motivation. I always feel busy but actually I am not accomplishing anything. Thoughts often crowd my mind, that I just can’t organize a thing. Ahhh this musing aint leading me anywhere so I better stop and clear my head.
I get fatter and fatter everyday and I aint doing anything about it. I’ll go jogging with Joey tomorrow, promise. (hehehehhehe..)
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Classes are in full swing again…. I’m handling 31 units of load for this semester and it is not an easy task … but I am not complaining… I can deal with another 3 units or better yet 6. :)
In front of me are piles of examination booklets from the recently concluded prelim exam … I am handling 9 classes of 6 different subjects from analog and digital electronics to differential calculus… but I am coping really well (very, very well indeed). I personally do all the checking of my students’ test papers…and after hours of correcting, I am glad to discover that a good number of my students did well in the exam. What better consolation there is from the weariness and difficulty of teaching? To see your students learn and flourish. Ahhhh…this is purely exhilarating…..
As a teacher I have seen different levels of intelligence… and I have realized that indeed every person had a unique calling in life… most of the students that had come my way had a below average intelligence… maybe I am rating them unfairly and subjectively… but these students can’t even add negative numbers, they can’t correctly spell common words, and worst they can’t even understand simple instructions. So are these students hopeless? No I don’t think so… the only problem is, they haven’t realized what they really want in life. Do they lack the intelligence to really know what they want? Oh but I really don’t know… what are the factors that make a person intelligent? Is it the genes? The environment? or the milk? Heheehhehe… this musing of mine is not doing me any good. I am just sure of one thing though… that I am really doing my very best to impart the knowledge and wisdom that is bestowed upon me…. As the line of Spiderman goes: “with great power comes great responsibilities” (am I stating it right? Hehehhe).
I AM BECOMING HOPELESS!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!
In front of me are piles of examination booklets from the recently concluded prelim exam … I am handling 9 classes of 6 different subjects from analog and digital electronics to differential calculus… but I am coping really well (very, very well indeed). I personally do all the checking of my students’ test papers…and after hours of correcting, I am glad to discover that a good number of my students did well in the exam. What better consolation there is from the weariness and difficulty of teaching? To see your students learn and flourish. Ahhhh…this is purely exhilarating…..
As a teacher I have seen different levels of intelligence… and I have realized that indeed every person had a unique calling in life… most of the students that had come my way had a below average intelligence… maybe I am rating them unfairly and subjectively… but these students can’t even add negative numbers, they can’t correctly spell common words, and worst they can’t even understand simple instructions. So are these students hopeless? No I don’t think so… the only problem is, they haven’t realized what they really want in life. Do they lack the intelligence to really know what they want? Oh but I really don’t know… what are the factors that make a person intelligent? Is it the genes? The environment? or the milk? Heheehhehe… this musing of mine is not doing me any good. I am just sure of one thing though… that I am really doing my very best to impart the knowledge and wisdom that is bestowed upon me…. As the line of Spiderman goes: “with great power comes great responsibilities” (am I stating it right? Hehehhe).
I AM BECOMING HOPELESS!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Sometimes nostalgia sweeps over me… reminiscence of the persons whom I lost in this lifetime makes me poignant. Until now I still miss my beloved Lola… after a year of her death my Lolo followed…. And then just recently my father-in-law passed away too. These persons have a special place in my heart and I can’t help but feel sad everytime thoughts of them come across me… I pray that they had finally found lasting peace… I just don’t know why I am writing about this here… well maybe I just feel really gloomy today…..and who cares?
I’m back to work since June 14 everything’s well… so far so good… got a new bunch of students and I’m quite happy to become part of their lives. Seeing their enthusiastic faces makes me eager to share everything I know and to really give the best education there is to offer. I just can’t believe that I really have this passion for teaching hehehhehehehehe… I just can’t imagine myself doing anything but teach (hehehhehehe).
Memories of Bali had finally ended… after months of really giving my full, undivided attention during the time slot of this Korean soap opera… I opted not to see the tragic ending. Well thanks to my friends in school for totally spoiling the suspense of it’s ending…hehehhehehe… at least it saved me from pain of its very sad finale… particularly since I had developed a very big attachment to Erika, Paulo and Ryan and that I often think that my husband looks like Paulo/Ryan (depending upon who makes Erika happy for the day) hahahahhaha (* Pathetic *sigh*sigh* I am doing a very big injustice to my Joey since my heart tells me that Joey’s far more handsome than these two Korean actors bwahahahahahhahahahhaha…. Oooooppppsss.. Don’t read this entry if you wouldn’t want to agree with me). Well anyway this soap opera had really entertained me during my bum days… and was the highlight of my day. I just wouldn’t wish for any rewind of this program because it will ruin the ending I have designed to believe in…
Well this writing had really brighten my day… this will be all for now… I’m really sleepy… ZZZZZZZzzzzzz…..
I’m back to work since June 14 everything’s well… so far so good… got a new bunch of students and I’m quite happy to become part of their lives. Seeing their enthusiastic faces makes me eager to share everything I know and to really give the best education there is to offer. I just can’t believe that I really have this passion for teaching hehehhehehehehe… I just can’t imagine myself doing anything but teach (hehehhehehe).
Memories of Bali had finally ended… after months of really giving my full, undivided attention during the time slot of this Korean soap opera… I opted not to see the tragic ending. Well thanks to my friends in school for totally spoiling the suspense of it’s ending…hehehhehehe… at least it saved me from pain of its very sad finale… particularly since I had developed a very big attachment to Erika, Paulo and Ryan and that I often think that my husband looks like Paulo/Ryan (depending upon who makes Erika happy for the day) hahahahhaha (* Pathetic *sigh*sigh* I am doing a very big injustice to my Joey since my heart tells me that Joey’s far more handsome than these two Korean actors bwahahahahahhahahahhaha…. Oooooppppsss.. Don’t read this entry if you wouldn’t want to agree with me). Well anyway this soap opera had really entertained me during my bum days… and was the highlight of my day. I just wouldn’t wish for any rewind of this program because it will ruin the ending I have designed to believe in…
Well this writing had really brighten my day… this will be all for now… I’m really sleepy… ZZZZZZZzzzzzz…..
Friday, June 10, 2005
musing
I feel so gloomy today……it seems that a very big injustice was made…. over and done with a good cry and it made me feel better and renewed … I am now letting go of the pain and bitterness I experienced earlier...
I know I do need to re-examine myself… what do I want from life? Where would I want to be? And what would really make me happy?
I felt so low and dejected a while ago because my expectations were not met…. I am not hoping for anything big… just a little bit augment on what we were getting before would surely make our hearts overflow with gratitude and would motivate us to give the best shot we can muster … but no…. we were informed bluntly that we should not anticipate for anything.. For nothing would be given.
This is the very first time that I felt so dissatisfied and sad with the path I am trudging …. It’s not the quantity that matters for it’s very minimal... it’s the feeling that comes with every raise… the feeling of being appreciated and treasured.
But I can never let this discontentment linger… for this will surely ruin the zeal I have for my profession… with fervor I look forward for another school year of challenges and fun.
CHEERS!
I know I do need to re-examine myself… what do I want from life? Where would I want to be? And what would really make me happy?
I felt so low and dejected a while ago because my expectations were not met…. I am not hoping for anything big… just a little bit augment on what we were getting before would surely make our hearts overflow with gratitude and would motivate us to give the best shot we can muster … but no…. we were informed bluntly that we should not anticipate for anything.. For nothing would be given.
This is the very first time that I felt so dissatisfied and sad with the path I am trudging …. It’s not the quantity that matters for it’s very minimal... it’s the feeling that comes with every raise… the feeling of being appreciated and treasured.
But I can never let this discontentment linger… for this will surely ruin the zeal I have for my profession… with fervor I look forward for another school year of challenges and fun.
CHEERS!
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Yesterday my parents celebrated there 35th year anniversary… I just can’t help but feel proud and happy for both of them.. and I am looking forward to their Golden Wedding Anniversary. J
Today I feel busy… been up early and was out of the house till afternoon. T’was not a very good day.. I was made to do things I am not comfortable of doing and was forced to mingle with people I really don’t know. Funny huh? Am really an introvert and I have a hard time blending with people…. but oftentimes I don’t have a choice, like what happened to me today… whaaaaaaa….. I feel tired and useless….
We have an earthquake this afternoon… a very mild one but I feel my chair swaying… so I ran out of my room only to find out that I am all alone in the house..hhehehehehe….
Today I feel busy… been up early and was out of the house till afternoon. T’was not a very good day.. I was made to do things I am not comfortable of doing and was forced to mingle with people I really don’t know. Funny huh? Am really an introvert and I have a hard time blending with people…. but oftentimes I don’t have a choice, like what happened to me today… whaaaaaaa….. I feel tired and useless….
We have an earthquake this afternoon… a very mild one but I feel my chair swaying… so I ran out of my room only to find out that I am all alone in the house..hhehehehehe….
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Today for a change I woke up early… and I really don’t know why I can’t force my self to go back to sleep…. Had been a bum for more than two months now and I’ve been getting used to it.. I am up till the wee hours of the morning playing all the games the PC had to offer, go to sleep when I can’t open my eyes anymore and drag myself out of bed to have lunch. My afternoons pass so swiftly that I barely notice it is dusk again. I hate going out of the house… but classes will be back on the 14th so I had to accept the fact that I’ll be working again. *sigh*
But the truth is….. I do look forward to this coming school year… another year of challenges… (as if hehehhehehe)… I will be meeting new faces…I will be teaching new subjects and I will again feel the sense of accomplishment and pride seeing my students grow… and become better persons hmmmmm… I will forever be a teacher by heart and soul…. I am trapped here by choice….
My long break had given me time to unwind, relax, and re-evaluate things in my life….Long had I stopped dreaming dreams … but now that I feel renewed it feels that all of the things I wanted so much in life are but a reach away… I am seeing things in a new perspective… and it makes me become more optimistic and animated in facing everything life has to offer.
CHEERS!!!
But the truth is….. I do look forward to this coming school year… another year of challenges… (as if hehehhehehe)… I will be meeting new faces…I will be teaching new subjects and I will again feel the sense of accomplishment and pride seeing my students grow… and become better persons hmmmmm… I will forever be a teacher by heart and soul…. I am trapped here by choice….
My long break had given me time to unwind, relax, and re-evaluate things in my life….Long had I stopped dreaming dreams … but now that I feel renewed it feels that all of the things I wanted so much in life are but a reach away… I am seeing things in a new perspective… and it makes me become more optimistic and animated in facing everything life has to offer.
CHEERS!!!
Monday, May 23, 2005
pond
pond
having a great time in a small pond... still in a very long vacation... classes will be back on the 13th of june... and i'm really bored doing nothing.
Monday, April 04, 2005
miss me?
after more than a month of being silent finally here i am back still alive and blogging...
for a month of course tons of things had happened.. the first blow is my father in-law died... after 4 years of under going hemodialysis because of his end stage renal failure he finally rested... he had a severe infection in his lungs and was the cause of his death. I was really saddened by his death because he was indeed like a father to me and i deeply cared for him.... we have our share of endless talks... but i know i should also be thankful for he finally rested and i pray that he finally found a lasting peace wherever he may be.
That poses a big question now..where do we go after death? well as a person born and raised as a catholic i do believe in life after death... seeing my father in-law's last breath had somehow console me in my fear of dying... he had a very peaceful death... he had drawn his last breath after our rosary prayer... well it was really painful... but i really have to be strong for my husband because i know it would be doubly painful for him. I believe that my father in-law is ready in facing death for he had been ill for four years and he is a very religious person.... what really frightens me about death is the thought of purgatory.. i had read somewhere that the suffering and pain in purgatory is incomparable to any pain and suffering we had gone trough in this life.... huhuhuhuuh... i just can't imagine how painful that is... sinful as i am... :( and that we should really pray for the souls in purgatory for our prayers would be of big help for this suffering souls.
Well another news is we already had closed down our computer rental business... it's not doing good so we have no other choice but to shut it down... and so we are broke. huhuhuhuuh....
And of course classes had ended... but still here i am reporting to school everyday because i have to finish the grades of my students and the reports... after this i am free as a bird... well indeed like a bird because i don't have anything to spend for vacation. hehehhehe.
for a month of course tons of things had happened.. the first blow is my father in-law died... after 4 years of under going hemodialysis because of his end stage renal failure he finally rested... he had a severe infection in his lungs and was the cause of his death. I was really saddened by his death because he was indeed like a father to me and i deeply cared for him.... we have our share of endless talks... but i know i should also be thankful for he finally rested and i pray that he finally found a lasting peace wherever he may be.
That poses a big question now..where do we go after death? well as a person born and raised as a catholic i do believe in life after death... seeing my father in-law's last breath had somehow console me in my fear of dying... he had a very peaceful death... he had drawn his last breath after our rosary prayer... well it was really painful... but i really have to be strong for my husband because i know it would be doubly painful for him. I believe that my father in-law is ready in facing death for he had been ill for four years and he is a very religious person.... what really frightens me about death is the thought of purgatory.. i had read somewhere that the suffering and pain in purgatory is incomparable to any pain and suffering we had gone trough in this life.... huhuhuhuuh... i just can't imagine how painful that is... sinful as i am... :( and that we should really pray for the souls in purgatory for our prayers would be of big help for this suffering souls.
Well another news is we already had closed down our computer rental business... it's not doing good so we have no other choice but to shut it down... and so we are broke. huhuhuhuuh....
And of course classes had ended... but still here i am reporting to school everyday because i have to finish the grades of my students and the reports... after this i am free as a bird... well indeed like a bird because i don't have anything to spend for vacation. hehehhehe.
Monday, February 28, 2005
Saturday, February 26, 2005
How energizing it is to have the whole day for yourself… whole day to sleep.. eat and then sleep again.. how refreshing.. a beautiful life indeed. Hehhehehe.
I sleep 12 hours straight today and it’s refreshing.. how I wish I could sleep 12 hours daily hehehehehhe. I am a real lazy person… and I don’t have dreams.. plans nah..nothing!!!
It’s a national holiday last Friday because we celebrated the 19th anniversary of EDSA REVOLUTION… hmmmmnnn… fine… I hope and pray that Philippines will soon rise from its present condition… huhuhuhuuuhu.. it makes my heart bleed to see the situation that my beloved country is facing… but well Filipinos are survivors… and happiness is but just a state of mind… I just hope that my fellowmen will all realize this and will always see life in its brightest side… the way I do. hehehhehe
Sometimes I wonder if im indeed a worthless person… I always hear brilliant people say that one should always have dreams, plans etc. Honestly speaking I don’t have one for a long time… and I can’t clearly remember when did I stop dreaming… hehehhehehhe. I am really hopeless.
Well maybe i will start dreaming again starting today.. hmmmn... :)
I sleep 12 hours straight today and it’s refreshing.. how I wish I could sleep 12 hours daily hehehehehhe. I am a real lazy person… and I don’t have dreams.. plans nah..nothing!!!
It’s a national holiday last Friday because we celebrated the 19th anniversary of EDSA REVOLUTION… hmmmmnnn… fine… I hope and pray that Philippines will soon rise from its present condition… huhuhuhuuuhu.. it makes my heart bleed to see the situation that my beloved country is facing… but well Filipinos are survivors… and happiness is but just a state of mind… I just hope that my fellowmen will all realize this and will always see life in its brightest side… the way I do. hehehhehe
Sometimes I wonder if im indeed a worthless person… I always hear brilliant people say that one should always have dreams, plans etc. Honestly speaking I don’t have one for a long time… and I can’t clearly remember when did I stop dreaming… hehehhehehhe. I am really hopeless.
Well maybe i will start dreaming again starting today.. hmmmn... :)
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
My Mom is afflicted with Bell’s palsy her face is a little bit distorted… it pains me to see her that way and I pray that she’ll recover soon. She’ll be celebrating her 56th birthday on the 28th and hopefully by that time her face will be back to normal.
Everything is well for my brother Toto and I praise God for this… chatted with him and jean earlier and I’m glad to see them both happy.
Me I am not feeling so well… I don’t have appetite to eat these last few days and I’m feeling weak. I really don’t know why. Well I just had started with my exercise program again.. well maybe this is the reason why I feel tired and weak.
I’m a little bit busy in school this week. I have to finish the summative evaluation of the teachers under me. I have to come inside their classes and observe them.. hahahah… as if I am an expert. Huh! Well I don’t enjoy doing this job knowing that I am making them uncomfortable inside their class. But anyway I have to do it.
Of course I really have dropped from my masteral class but joriel is trying to motivate me to attend classes again saying that I’m not missing anything from class hahahah. But it really feels good to sleep non-stop on Saturdays and Sunday because when Monday comes you’ll feel refreshed and ready to face the whole week. Well maybe this is but just a sign that I’m really growing old.
That’s all for today… :)
Everything is well for my brother Toto and I praise God for this… chatted with him and jean earlier and I’m glad to see them both happy.
Me I am not feeling so well… I don’t have appetite to eat these last few days and I’m feeling weak. I really don’t know why. Well I just had started with my exercise program again.. well maybe this is the reason why I feel tired and weak.
I’m a little bit busy in school this week. I have to finish the summative evaluation of the teachers under me. I have to come inside their classes and observe them.. hahahah… as if I am an expert. Huh! Well I don’t enjoy doing this job knowing that I am making them uncomfortable inside their class. But anyway I have to do it.
Of course I really have dropped from my masteral class but joriel is trying to motivate me to attend classes again saying that I’m not missing anything from class hahahah. But it really feels good to sleep non-stop on Saturdays and Sunday because when Monday comes you’ll feel refreshed and ready to face the whole week. Well maybe this is but just a sign that I’m really growing old.
That’s all for today… :)
Monday, February 21, 2005
Friday, February 11, 2005
friday!!!
it's friday and tomorrow i'm totally free.... i finally dropped from my masteral class so i can sleep non-stop all day long.
The whole week went well.. nothing special... Monday would be valentines day... in time for our teachers' day... we'll be having some activities at school but at least it would mean rest from talking non-stop in front of my students.
I have been fascinated with tickle web quizzes.. hehehehe. It seems that i have taken all their offered quizzes online....
The whole week went well.. nothing special... Monday would be valentines day... in time for our teachers' day... we'll be having some activities at school but at least it would mean rest from talking non-stop in front of my students.
I have been fascinated with tickle web quizzes.. hehehehe. It seems that i have taken all their offered quizzes online....
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
paranoia
I am afflicted with paranoia … I have this growing suspicion that people at the office are backbiting me… :) who cares? Hehehhehehe.
I have a very bad migraine last night which placed me in the verge of vomiting everything I have eaten earlier… well this sickness was triggered by my missed cup of coffee…. I was really trying to live a healthy life style… by cutting on coke and coffee… hehehehe. So today I am back with my cup of coffee and bottles of coke. (Happy!!!)
I have a very bad migraine last night which placed me in the verge of vomiting everything I have eaten earlier… well this sickness was triggered by my missed cup of coffee…. I was really trying to live a healthy life style… by cutting on coke and coffee… hehehehe. So today I am back with my cup of coffee and bottles of coke. (Happy!!!)
Saturday, February 05, 2005
I have so many things in my head now… and I just want to pour things out to feel lighter. I have a very bad temper today…and I send Marwin out of the café because he’s not performing his job … he has this I don’t care charisma and he’s too lazy to do anything but chat chat and chat all day long. I am never a slave driver.. I am very humane in dealing with him and treat him like a younger brother… his laziness just get on my nerves today and have brought me ranting…
Finally I have decided to stop attending my Masteral class … it’s a waste of my worthless time
:(
I just don’t understand why can’t my husband support me with my plan of joining the business venture of my superiors… he changed his mind so suddenly and left me hanging in the process… ahhhh this is really unfair…
And a parent of one of our students came to school yesterday looking for me… he’s boiling hot with rage because he doesn’t want her daughter to join in our educational trip in Cebu City… he raved really nasty things to me… “that trip is useless”.. “my daughter won’t learn anything from that trip” blah blah blah… and of course I just keep cool and explained nicely that we are not forcing her daughter to join the said trip… her daughter has the option of doing a special project instead… and that if he can’t afford to send his daughter he has no right to say offensive things about our upcoming trip… oh my I am in the verge of losing my patience… hmmmmnn… it’s really sad… knowing that this person is also a teacher himself.
Well that’s all and thanks to blogging I feel good and renewed. :)
Finally I have decided to stop attending my Masteral class … it’s a waste of my worthless time
:(
I just don’t understand why can’t my husband support me with my plan of joining the business venture of my superiors… he changed his mind so suddenly and left me hanging in the process… ahhhh this is really unfair…
And a parent of one of our students came to school yesterday looking for me… he’s boiling hot with rage because he doesn’t want her daughter to join in our educational trip in Cebu City… he raved really nasty things to me… “that trip is useless”.. “my daughter won’t learn anything from that trip” blah blah blah… and of course I just keep cool and explained nicely that we are not forcing her daughter to join the said trip… her daughter has the option of doing a special project instead… and that if he can’t afford to send his daughter he has no right to say offensive things about our upcoming trip… oh my I am in the verge of losing my patience… hmmmmnn… it’s really sad… knowing that this person is also a teacher himself.
Well that’s all and thanks to blogging I feel good and renewed. :)
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