this is the view at the back of our house..... a place for meditation...
God is so good that our house is located at the foot of the mountain.... we open our eyes every morning to nature's beauty.... :)

musing 002

03/01/2011

“Love God above all”, a line that really keeps me wondering for a long… long time….. How can I truly love God above all???? How can I??? I was taught that loving my neighbor who is sick… poor….suffering…. deprived is the same thing as loving God….. for God is present in them…. and would it mean that if I help these needy people I am already showing God that I love him above all things??? And that giving that hurts is what giving really is…. And so in my own way I have tried my best to do these things so that I can give my love to the Supreme One….. but oftentimes I feel guilty because I know I’m still lacking…. I can’t really, truly Love God above all things…. I can say that I truly love my husband, my son, my family, my friends…. But do I really love God above all things???

One day I came across the audio book eat, pray love and somehow it opened my mind to the beliefs beyond my religion…. It was just the narration of Elizabeth Gilbert’s journey thru life… it had touched me a great deal…. Somewhere in the book I read that when you ask for a teacher to lead you to God one will always be given…. All you need is just ask…. And so that the same day I prayed and asked God to give me a guide so that I’ll know him better and that finally I really can love Him above all…. After probably days I came across another book entitled “The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success” by Deepak Chopra, the book really enlightened me a great deal and I was so excited that I can’t stop myself from sharing this new found knowledge with my friends…. The books changed my outlook in life… I tried to become more considerate…. Compassionate and kind to all the people around me and especially to my students…. I had begun to understand my purpose in life… I started meditating … I enjoyed doing it …. It clears my mind…. It makes me feel good … though I can’t do it often as much as I want to because of my lack of time management I still try to do it as often as I can…… My life had greatly improved…..

I'm back after 6 years of silence....

And so again here I am writing about everything and anything….. I don’t have any idea what it is that I wanna write about but I know that I gotta write right now…..

I am just thinking about the manifestation of my desires… earlier I meditated and something unusual happened…. My body began swaying to some sort of music…. It feels like I’m exercising and it made me breathless and I kept on gasping for air…. It made me feel good because I can feel my veins stretching and after a while I feel numb all over especially in my throat…. I somewhat felt afraid too because I’m worrying that if I continue I’ll lose control and I’ll plunge into the unknown…. And what if I lose consciousness??? I’ve locked the room and if anything happens to me it would be a long while before anybody could see me….. And so I stopped but I again attempted because it really felt good and I’ve done it again… my body swaying back and forth….. Hopefully I’ll experience it again next time I meditate…..