Sometimes nostalgia sweeps over me… reminiscence of the persons whom I lost in this lifetime makes me poignant. Until now I still miss my beloved Lola… after a year of her death my Lolo followed…. And then just recently my father-in-law passed away too. These persons have a special place in my heart and I can’t help but feel sad everytime thoughts of them come across me… I pray that they had finally found lasting peace… I just don’t know why I am writing about this here… well maybe I just feel really gloomy today…..and who cares?

I’m back to work since June 14 everything’s well… so far so good… got a new bunch of students and I’m quite happy to become part of their lives. Seeing their enthusiastic faces makes me eager to share everything I know and to really give the best education there is to offer. I just can’t believe that I really have this passion for teaching hehehhehehehehe… I just can’t imagine myself doing anything but teach (hehehhehehe).

Memories of Bali had finally ended… after months of really giving my full, undivided attention during the time slot of this Korean soap opera… I opted not to see the tragic ending. Well thanks to my friends in school for totally spoiling the suspense of it’s ending…hehehhehehe… at least it saved me from pain of its very sad finale… particularly since I had developed a very big attachment to Erika, Paulo and Ryan and that I often think that my husband looks like Paulo/Ryan (depending upon who makes Erika happy for the day) hahahahhaha (* Pathetic *sigh*sigh* I am doing a very big injustice to my Joey since my heart tells me that Joey’s far more handsome than these two Korean actors bwahahahahahhahahahhaha…. Oooooppppsss.. Don’t read this entry if you wouldn’t want to agree with me). Well anyway this soap opera had really entertained me during my bum days… and was the highlight of my day. I just wouldn’t wish for any rewind of this program because it will ruin the ending I have designed to believe in…

Well this writing had really brighten my day… this will be all for now… I’m really sleepy… ZZZZZZZzzzzzz…..

musing

I feel so gloomy today……it seems that a very big injustice was made…. over and done with a good cry and it made me feel better and renewed … I am now letting go of the pain and bitterness I experienced earlier...

I know I do need to re-examine myself… what do I want from life? Where would I want to be? And what would really make me happy?

I felt so low and dejected a while ago because my expectations were not met…. I am not hoping for anything big… just a little bit augment on what we were getting before would surely make our hearts overflow with gratitude and would motivate us to give the best shot we can muster … but no…. we were informed bluntly that we should not anticipate for anything.. For nothing would be given.

This is the very first time that I felt so dissatisfied and sad with the path I am trudging …. It’s not the quantity that matters for it’s very minimal... it’s the feeling that comes with every raise… the feeling of being appreciated and treasured.

But I can never let this discontentment linger… for this will surely ruin the zeal I have for my profession… with fervor I look forward for another school year of challenges and fun.

CHEERS!

Yesterday my parents celebrated there 35th year anniversary… I just can’t help but feel proud and happy for both of them.. and I am looking forward to their Golden Wedding Anniversary. J

Today I feel busy… been up early and was out of the house till afternoon. T’was not a very good day.. I was made to do things I am not comfortable of doing and was forced to mingle with people I really don’t know. Funny huh? Am really an introvert and I have a hard time blending with people…. but oftentimes I don’t have a choice, like what happened to me today… whaaaaaaa….. I feel tired and useless….

We have an earthquake this afternoon… a very mild one but I feel my chair swaying… so I ran out of my room only to find out that I am all alone in the house..hhehehehehe….

Today for a change I woke up early… and I really don’t know why I can’t force my self to go back to sleep…. Had been a bum for more than two months now and I’ve been getting used to it.. I am up till the wee hours of the morning playing all the games the PC had to offer, go to sleep when I can’t open my eyes anymore and drag myself out of bed to have lunch. My afternoons pass so swiftly that I barely notice it is dusk again. I hate going out of the house… but classes will be back on the 14th so I had to accept the fact that I’ll be working again. *sigh*

But the truth is….. I do look forward to this coming school year… another year of challenges… (as if hehehhehehe)… I will be meeting new faces…I will be teaching new subjects and I will again feel the sense of accomplishment and pride seeing my students grow… and become better persons hmmmmm… I will forever be a teacher by heart and soul…. I am trapped here by choice….

My long break had given me time to unwind, relax, and re-evaluate things in my life….Long had I stopped dreaming dreams … but now that I feel renewed it feels that all of the things I wanted so much in life are but a reach away… I am seeing things in a new perspective… and it makes me become more optimistic and animated in facing everything life has to offer.

CHEERS!!!